I used to detest Valentines Day. It was that dreaded day of the year where, once again, I would find myself single, lonely and staring daggers at any loved up couples that happened to cross my path. I slowly became one of those people, that as the 14th of February rolled around yet again, I would be cursing and complaining that it was just another commercialised day for companies to make money from suckers.
It was pure jealousy and loneliness talking, as well as the repetitive thought that echoed in my mind that I would never find anyone. I was also deathly shy and a chronic blusher, and had such a hard time summoning the courage to even talk to a guy I was remotely attracted to. I tried to fool myself into thinking that I had better things to focus on than boys but deep down I wanted someone, anyone, badly – be it study, work, travel or reading…anything else.
As a late starter, I didn’t have my first boyfriend until I was 23, and even then, it wasn’t because we had a connection, or any spark, it’s just because I had started to think it was weird that I hadn’t been with anyone yet, plus the fact that some of my friends started telling me there was something wrong with me, and some family started to think I was perhaps gay. So, I embarked on a relationship, half-hearted. 3 ½ years later I finally woke up to my senses, causing a fair bit of heart-break in the process – only not to my heart. I am actually happy to say that my tune has now changed. I guess it helps that I met someone I clicked with and am in a good relationship. I think it also helps that I’m more comfortable with myself now, and think I was pretty ridiculous thinking that I would never meet anyone. And so what if I didn’t?! There is so much more to life.
I know a lot of people say that you shouldn’t need the excuse of this one day in a year to express your love and do something special for someone. But, I think it’s a nice thought, especially in a day and age where we all are so busy and get caught up in the rat race. Denis and I had a lovely time yesterday. We went on a date and had dinner at a lovely, quaint restaurant in the Swan Valley, seated at a table on the decking overlooking the water. Plus he gave me perfume and jewellery! I am feeling very spoilt and loved up right now.
- Valentine’s Day Bash! (csahm.com)