I resigned from my job today.
It feels good. I feel lighter. I feel like I can breathe easier. I also feel bloody exhausted. It’s 7.00pm on a Friday night and I am seriously contemplating going to bed. If only it wasn’t still light out.
I do need to remember to remind myself that I went through this for a reason. I’ve been in this job for just over a year and a half. I shouldn’t have stayed there that long as I haven’t been happy there for a while. But, in life, things happen, and sometimes you just have to suck it up and do things or be places that you don’t want to be.
I brought a house last year and took on a mortgage, so I couldn’t just job hop, or be unemployed for a bit. That was followed by 5 interest rate rises in the space of about a year. That was pleasant. So I needed to stay where I was to pay the increased mortgage payments.
My Nan got real sick and passed away in April last year. That was a hard one. They say never change jobs at a stressful time in life, so I didn’t. The last thing I could focus on was getting a new job. I actually nearly had one – but I couldn’t go through with it as I just wasn’t mentally prepared, and had to allow myself time to grieve.
I also had to go to the UK for my dear friends wedding. I was bridesmaid. So I needed to be able to take a good 4 weeks off work, and get paid for the leave. I also needed to stay in a job to save money for the trip. The job actually allowed me to salary sacrifice a component of my wage, which really helped the savings.
My partner – well he had a ‘health scare’ – and quit smoking. That was a hard one after Nan died. Hearing that he had high blood pressure, high cholesterol, possible diabetes, and then the reaction his body had to the smoking medication and the statins – well, I was scared, whilst trying to support him.
I also started and completed a 6 month Leadership Program, which resulted in me taking up some volunteering work, blogging, and so on.
So the job has actually provided me with the perfect opportunity to deal with life and personal development. It has also taught me a lot about people. Some good, some bad, and a whole lot of ugly.
NEVER again. Life is way too short.